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Oct. 14th, 2008 | 11:29 pm

about this journal. i think it's time to utilize it again.

i don't seem to have many private thoughts these days. when you live with and love someone quite so much, you don't really keep anything from them.
but i'm happy about it.

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way up here

Jan. 31st, 2006 | 12:17 am
mood: nostalgic
music: anti- - magnolia tree

i need to make more music with my acoustic guitar.

this song makes me cry a lot. why is ben so good?

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Jan. 16th, 2006 | 10:44 pm

if i'm the sick fuck, then why do you delight in tormenting me?

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Jan. 11th, 2006 | 12:01 am

My japanese name is 清水 Shimizu (clear water) 拓海 Takumi (open sea).
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Jan. 1st, 2006 | 10:20 pm
music: nin - i'm looking forward to joining you, finally

just bought tickets for :

low, january 27th at the logan square auditorium.
mogwai, march 1st at the logan square auditorium.

wanted to let anyone who is a fan know.

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Dec. 30th, 2005 | 12:34 am
mood: cold
music: the cure - close to me

in many european mythologies, demons are represented by women with red hair and green eyes. strangely enough, those are two physical features that i look for in women. does that say something about me?

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dear firehair

Dec. 28th, 2005 | 09:23 pm
mood: confused
music: can - mary, mary, so contrary

thank you for showing me the books.
if only i had something to read.

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gingerbread house

Dec. 27th, 2005 | 12:45 am
mood: depressed
music: pan•american - redline

you know that feeling you get in your throat? when you've been crying non-stop for an hour and your voice comes out all wrong? when you gasp for air and all you want to do is go to sleep and stop crying?
that's what i feel like right now
even though i haven't been crying or anything of the sort.

i feel completely devastated, but if you saw me at the moment, i'd look like i had just woken up from a nap.

i'm so frustrated with being lonely/alone all the time. i'm really concerned about my parents, but i feel like if i don't move out of the house soon, i'm going to be stuck here forever.
mom keeps pressuring me to meet new people and put myself in a position to do so, but i'm extremely reluctant to do so.

i just want a girlfriend. i want to move into an apartment with my girlfriend and not have to worry about anything for a little while.

i have cuts all over the roof of my mouth, and i've no idea how they got there.

my musical writer's block is becoming an injury that refuses to heal. i'm running out of band-aids™ and tylenol™ and it will soon be infected, as i'm too weak to get to the store.

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my first ever political rant. hopefully the FBI won't show up at my house.

Dec. 21st, 2005 | 01:36 pm

(taken from a comment i posted in kaitlin's journal)

this war is our generation's vietnam.
but vietnam was a people's war. EVERYONE was involved.
we are so in the dark regarding the war in iraq that we find it hard to sympathize/empathize with the soldiers, and at the same time, we feel horrible about it.
now, i'm not saying that the draft should have been reinstated and people dragged off to war against their wills, but that's the reason vietnam was so much more of a war back home, as well. people really got involved.
the protesting against this war has been minimal and (i hate to say it, but) pathetic.

i don't know if you participated in the walk-out sophomore year (i did), but it didn't really do much. at the same time, i felt like i was TRYING, at least. you know? we marched over to the new trier republican commitee office or whatever it's called and tried to talk to the people there about the war. tried to understand why it had to happen.
but they mostly ignored us, and nearly everyone got an unexcused absence.

everyone complains about the war and wants it to end, but no one is really doing anything about it. and the worst part is that it's the best we can do. the citizens of america can't get bush impeached (most of them voted for him in the first place [fucking idiots]), and even if we could, our current government (if you can even call it that...it's more like a corporation that's screwing all the little people) wouldn't allow it to follow through.

so we sit and worry about people dying, on our side and the other side, and listen to bullshit excuses for the government to SPY on us (which should be completely illegal) so that they can find "terrorists" in our CUNTry.
if there were still any terrorists in this country, they already would have done something.

and that's what i think.

and this is what georgie thinks:

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where do hearts go? on a fucking t-shirt!

Dec. 11th, 2005 | 09:47 pm
mood: accomplished
music: rachel's - handwriting LP

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i. fucking. rock.

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